Recovering Alcoholic…

May 28, 2009 by  
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I have become an honorary recovering alcoholic. I follow their prayer; grant me the strength to change the things I can, the serenity to accept the things I can’t and the wisdom to know the difference, to the letter.

In the last 9 months of my life I have lost my husband, my savings (I was one of the people that thought I had invested with a member of my husband’s family but was actually investing with Madoff), and my father had a heart attack.

I have no way of fighting life’s current as things just keep coming at me. So all I can do is  stay afloat and concentrate in what I need to do a moment at a time.

Although I have endured much there is something liberating about knowing that I don’t know or have any control in what is coming ahead.  That opens up life to all kinds of possibilities; good and bad. 

It is not that I don’t hold any responsibility in what happens but it truly shows that I should deal with the future when it becomes the present.  So in essence I have an easier time living in the moment.

So many things I never expected have happened to me.  I grew up in Brazil and never imagined living in NY or LA and here I am.  Never imagined working in the film industry or being a widow but that is life.

Of course the best thing about realizing that nobody knows anything is that I no longer spend any money in psychics or tarot readers.

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  1. Amanda says:

    I’m glad that your sharing some of your life with us. I’m sorry to hear that you had a alcohol problem, but I am happy to hear that you are recovering from it. I know how hard it must have been for you. My mom and grandfather where both alcoholics so I had kind of a tough life growing up I would love to share with you but I dont know if I have enough space to =D. It’s funny how we will spend hundreds of dollars on people who claim they can read into your future, but everyone tells you something different. We’re not meant to know what our future is going to be or else we would have been born knowing. I am always curious to know about other peoples lives and how they became who they are. I hope one day you would blog on how you became a film producer, I find it facinating. There is some much I want to know about your profession. I want to thank you for taking the time to answer all my questions that I have. It is deeply appriciated.