Meaning Of Life

May 9, 2010 by  
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“When the world seems to be falling apart, stick to your own trajectory; hang onto your own ideals and find kindred spirits. That’s the rule of life.”
– Joseph Campbell

I am often reading, thinking, searching and writing articles about life.  Since I was a child I have been perplexed by the inequities and randomness of life.  I search for myself but share the path and the findings.  I search because I don’t want to accept – and I know – what is presented and obvious about life as its totality.  It would be too despairing if it was so.

I am a second generation Jewish Brazilian woman.  I’m the granddaughter of Russian and Polish immigrants that left behind all their possessions to start anew in a foreign country, and I’m the daughter of a woman abandoned by her father.  Depression runs in my family and a sense of worth is a foreign feeling.

When I was eighteen I left home and moved to the US because I wanted my heart beat to beat with the world.  I needed to be out there.

In my adulthood I have had many experiences, some good and some bad, just like everybody else. And my greatest pain is having lost my husband to cancer.

My story is just like yours.  But when I step outside myself and see the world, the quest that started in my childhood for a deeper meaning, becomes a closer reality.

I believe we lead a push and pull life.  We know life is more than our day to day.  We know it is more than succeeding at a job, being famous, or wealthy.  It is even more than being a member of a family but somehow we can’t trust that.  So we run back to putting one foot in front of the other always scared that something bad is going to happen; afraid of thinking outside of the box.

By no means do I think I know where life comes from and why.  I of course understand evolution etc. but what about the very first first?  Anyway, I do know, as I continue to expose myself to life and dig into who I am with courage and honesty, I open my heart to love and compassion.   And maybe one day, I’ll get to experience what Dr. Jill Bolte Taylor (http://www.ted.com/talks/lang/eng/jill_bolte_taylor_s_powerful_stroke_of_insight.html) said about her transformational experience: “my earthly body dissolved and I melted into the universe.”  And if that is too new age for you, another gain from being connected to life in a deeper way is a greater contentment and acceptance and a great ability to laugh your heart out.

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