New Year, Give Yourself The Ultimate Gift; A Journey Within

December 30, 2011 by  
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As the year draws into a close, many of us reflect back to our personal highs and lows.  Even people who are not totally convinced of the end followed by a new beginning, get pulled into the general feeling of warm hugs, introspection and slowing down.

Today, I went out with a friend who I have known since I moved to Los Angeles in 1994.  Out of the blue he looked at me and said: “You should live in Europe.  Probably Paris.  Yes, that’s the right place for you.” A bit puzzled I asked him: “Why?”  To which he answered: “Because Europe is so artistic, I think it is a more accurate reflection of you.” Without missing a beat I said: “I’m exactly where I want to be.”

Afterwards, I thought about my answer: I’m exactly where I want to be.  Wow.  How many people can say that?  Now, I don’t live in a mansion or on the beach or have amazing views.  It is not the house.  It is my state of being.  I am exactly where I want to be.

The realization made me smile.  After all, I had spent decades trying to figure out how to be at peace in my own skin.

I, like most people, had thought I would find contentment if I had the right partner, or plenty of money, or position, or the admiration of many only to realize feeling good comes from within. Feeling good comes from a close relationship with the self.

I am a widow. My family lives in two other continents.  My professional dreams have not been  realized.  But yet I am inspired daily by the energy of being well.

After living through abusive relationships, financial chaos, a serious crime and finally and becoming a widow, I realized it was time to slow down the world outside and take the journey I had not taken; the one within.

In my journey I forgave my transgressions and those of others.  And I offered the same compassion I had offered many to myself.  I learned to listen to what was truly important to me. And I learned I didn’t have to defend my ego at every step of the way.  What others thought of me took back seat to what I thought of myself.  Most importantly I embraced my life as it is and not as I thought I wanted it to be.

The incredible result of having gotten to know and appreciate myself is contentment.  And what a feeling that is.

So if you are taking stock of your life and if you don’t yet feel you are exactly where you want to be, maybe you too should invest in travelling inward.

Learn to take time for yourself. Prioritize your life. Go after your dreams but live and enjoy the present. Connect with others.  Appreciate the person you are. Appreciate the obstacles you have already overcome.  Live in love.  Care for your body.  Eat well. Exercise.  Build a healthy ego so you can be vulnerable.  Don’t postpone contentment for an imaginary future.  Be content today.

There is still much for me to learn and to change.  But I’m excited about the possibilities because I’m starting from exactly where I want to be.

  • Winsor Pilates


2 Responses to “New Year, Give Yourself The Ultimate Gift; A Journey Within”
  1. Helen says:

    Hi it was very inspiring to read you new year message, I feel I need to look into my self to feel content and have no idea how to start but reading the above gives me hope!
    I am deeply in love with a man who is kind and loving but sadly we don’t want the same path and it’s breaking my heart but maybe if I could find contentment with myself I could move on with my life and be happy with what I have.
    I also read of how you were widowed , such a beautiful and sad story filled with such love and heart felt pain I hope you will continue to inspire people as its a very amazing thing to do after you have been through so much yourself xx

    • Dear Helen,

      Thank you for reading my blog. I can tell you that happiness and contentment starts within exactly because I once lost everything. I don’t know the details of your relationship with this particular man but want to assure you you’re a complete woman. Listen to your inner-voice. It will tell you what is truly important to you. What you can live with and what you can live without. Once you know your path you will have no other desires but to follow it.

      I wish you an amazing 2012 filled with smiles and laughter.

      All the best,