Self Destructive Behavior, How To Stop It

January 30, 2011 by  
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I know a thing or two about self-destructive behavior.  In my life I had two distinct cycles; first when I left my family in Brazil and moved to NYC.  Second, when I left my first husband in NYC and moved to Los Angeles.

Now even prior to my move to NYC, I find a girl who always had trouble understanding why people would love me.  Even a friend.  So I would look at every relationship I had and ask myself what was I providing that person with to justify them being my friend. One can say I had a serious case of low self-esteem. And of course it wasn’t justified. I’ve always had many qualities that make me a person worth being with and loving.

My first cycle ran for about ten years.  I married a man who was controlling and abusive and little by little lost myself to depression.

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